The Post Without a Point | San Antonio Blogger

When I messaged my friend Katie on Monday and asked her to photograph me (in exchange for my photographing her), I had no formation of words in mind to accompany my images. It’s typically the inverse, so I’m not sure why I made this request. I hadn’t purchased any new clothing and I wasn’t feeling particularly attractive. Maybe I just wanted to write and recognized that the kindergartener in us thinks words are best consumed with a portion of pictures. Or maybe I’m realizing how behind I am on the 30-posts-before-40 challenge my husband proposed. I don’t know. But around 11 a.m. I found myself at La Villita in downtown San Antonio, laughing and posing and laughing at my posing.

I’m almost certain I’ve been the subject of more photos since meeting this friend six months ago than I have in the past decade. It’s been really good for me. I’m finding that the more I show up for myself and release that suffocating fear of judgment, the less I engage in negative self-talk with both myself and others. Children are giant breathing sponges and the older mine get, the more I feel a responsibility to model self-love and self-awareness to them.

So I suppose I just wanted to write. Since making the decision to return to school last week, I feel like every space of my brain has been occupied. When I start to feel that way, the only remedy is either intense exercise or some sort of creative outlet and today that remedy came in the form of playing dress-up and editing photos.